I Will Prevail

[Dssmount]

Hello again. Wow people are really good at telling me that I matter to this community. In real life I am a DJ and music producer. Three things I value the most are community, ambition, and a healthy footing. I have been approached my multiple players, telling me that ultimately my choice is my own, and they support it, however everyone that has messaged me through discord, and most in the game who have messaged me, were really pulling for me to stay. Many different fair and valuable things were stated my these people. Like how I just needed to slow down, scout what makes me happy, because clearly I didn't just play this game for over 7 years and 2500 hours for nothing. Like how it's possible to juggle this game with other things in life, and that I just needed to practice, acknowledge that it's something I need to try. I am clearly forming a bit of regret, though I do still feel that these 24 hours of events were needed to boost me up again.

I was feeling a bit burnt out, but it was because recently I was binge playing + doing a lot of things at once. I never spoke a peep when all I did was fishing and cooking. Is it a bit slow and boring, sure, but where it leads to can be a really good goal, as opposed to being a pro of all trades and things. I have rebuilt from very little before. I want to apologize to anyone who has had their gameplay affected by my sporadic choices, and I wish to remain a positive in this community. I thrived on throwing up hundreds of ideas day and night, it got my brain working, it made me happy to think that just maybe I would be around to see something I personally came up with!

Last night I was attempting to pull away from 2 games. The first one is League of Legends, a very toxic mainstream hell of a game, that game I was dragged into by two of my friends at the time. I do not enjoy that game, and the soul reason I haven't quit is because of the amount of money I put into the game. As for RPG MO, Me and those same two friends stumbled onto the game 7 years ago, and I was the one to stick around. I never needed them to like the game on my own, and to find stuff to stick out to me. What I'm implying is my sporadic focus darted nature may have caused to misdirect my choices on quitting to RPG MO as well. Now I do still stand by some of the things I have said, sometimes it has felt like I can scream into a void and get no response, this applies to multiple things in the game and the surrounding elements, which is why it sounds generalized.

What I'm saying is, I sold off just about everything in game, was giving everyone the peace sign, and thought that I was to slip away unnoticed, but then people noticed, a LOT, and it made me regret what I did last night. I was shown an immense amount of respect and kindness and it was made clear that I was wanted here, and that's why I stayed around in the first place, to feel welcomed for something. My decision is now made. I will try to pick myself back up, and I will prevail, thank you. See you in Dorpat!